This has probably been the hardest 3 weeks of my life. Turns out that Andy kid was just bad news.
I let him in.
I told him about me. And my abusive family. And the cutting. And everything.
And he just laughed.
He laughed at me. I knew he was an asshole, but I found it sort of charming. Now he's just...cruel.
I started again.
I'm sorry everybody.
You won't have to put up with me for too much longer if things keep going this way.
My dad started hitting my mom again, and I was about to take a stand. I was about to say something. But I couldn't.
I just couldn't work up the nerve.
I failed it.
Just like I've failed everything else: relationships, school, everything.
I'm sorry; I feel like I've let you all down. You all believed in me, and I just ended up being a failure.
I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know if life is even worth living.
I'm sorry, I'll try and be strong.
I'll try...

Current Mood: on the brink

So, I know I haven't posted in a little bit, but I've not forgotten about you all...So much has happened this week, including us getting stranded lol in Sarasota! My mom's battery died, and damned if I was going to ride home with my pig of a father, so I stayed with her. This one annoying kid kept telling us to just jump it, but we called triple a and they jumped it for us.
Also, I think I met a boy...he's really sweet and his name's Andy and he likes me for me.
It's been a week now since I've stopped cutting, and it's been both the best and worst week of my life. The real test will be when my asshole dad next tries to beat me or my mother, but I know I can stay strong!
I hope somebody's still reading this, despite my ljbreak :)
-<3 Vicky

Current Mood: determined

This is the last time I ever do that. Thanks to some inspiration from __postsecret, I've decided to turn over a new leaf so to speak.
It won't be easy, but I've realized that I don't need anybody's approval but my own. No matter whether he is my father or not, next time that asshole hits my mom I'm running away and taking her with me. And telling the police.
So there. I've said it.
Wish me luck?

Current Mood: depressed

New journal, new life ^_^
As my old journal got discovered by all of the trolls and meanies etc., I made a new one. And NO WAI YOU CANNOT GET THE URL FOR MY OLD JOURNAL because I DELETED IT!
Anyway, my name is Vicky, once again.
Le sigh
When I got home today, my mom was bruised..again! I don't see why she stays with that MEAN CHAUVINIST PIG that is my father! I guess I should be giving thanks tho, since we can afford my fancy private school, or what-ev.
That's all that's going on in Vicky's life!
ttyl,
<3 Vicky